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    Friday, April 1st, 2005
    12:14 am
    Last one
    Yes this is it. The end of my livejournal life. I will be writing a new one. About a Gnome. Well really its his novel. Ill be more or less writing a book in here now. New name and everything. I am retiring my LJ because I feel there is no point to it. Not enough people care to read about it and I would rather share my inspirations, asperations, thoughts, concerns, cares, and whatever else over coffee at a diner somwhere. So I leave you all with this which is very very true....



    I am a d20


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    You are the large, round, friendly d20! (You probably didn't know this, but the shape of the twenty-sided die is called an Icosahedron.) You are the friendly, outgoing, outspoken, leader of friends. You are often looked up to, even though you don't normally deserve it. Most other types secretly wish they were you, and you'd give them tips on how, if only you had a clue yourself. Your charisma is often all you need, but you have your occasional moments of brilliance as well--just never when it's actually needed. You are the all-around good guy, a dependable chum, a respectable foe, and an inspiration to those who need one. Who says you can't get by on a smile and good looks alone?

    Current Mood: creative
    Current Music: Blues and Jazz
    Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
    10:05 pm
    Clear blue skies with a single cloud that just hangs....
    First off WOW.....Million Dollar Baby....Go see it.

    Next I would like to say that it is not the month or the movie that gets me in these livejournal update moods. It is either a cumulation of things happening that I just need to write something about or some random interjection in my life that deserves a spot here in my journal.

    Jason Mraz just always has the right lyrics for any way you could possibly be feeling at any certain point at any given time. This is why I am almost always listening to him when I am expressing myself.

    Im not normally one to say what I have done in a day but this is worth mentioning to me. Picked up the acoustic guitar again in almost 4 months. It went very well. My fellow musician and I managed to actually get some music writin' after several failed attempts in the past. Hopefully soon we will be out rocking some local joints and just having fun.

    Okay so I guess I should get to the reason I am updating. It has been something I have been wondering for quite some time now. never mind. there is no point. maybe if some people are interested I will talk about it with them.

    In any case I had a chance this past weekend to volunteer for deployment. I almost did. I did not because I felt things here were better and that I should hang around to find out about school and such. Well things are worse than war here and I am sorta regretting that I did not volunteer. Maybe the next time the chance arrises I will. Active duty seems so much better right now. I mean what is there around here thats worth staying for anyway? The chance to actually make some music? The chance of meeting a girl that knocks me off my feet? Looking forward to doing nothing but party every weekend? I am just tired of the same old crowd and the same old patterns. My world needs to be shook up a bit. Things need to happen unexpectedly. Sure I do things spontaniously but around here you can almost always tell what each person is going to do at any certain time. I dont know if its intelligence or observation that lets me know what will go on from day to day. In any case its bad because I am almost never surprised. Just about everything I have ever guessed on I have been right. I dont say because I dont want to hurt anyones feelings. I may be blunt about some things but there are things that just need to be kept to yourself.

    Why must I feel this way? There is nothing going on horribly wrong...yet about once every week or two I get a sorta depressed, lost, wish I wasnt here, all kinds of emotions feeling that just comes from nowhere. I dont know but I do. its just eh.....

    Current Mood: nothing that can be explained
    Current Music: Jason Mraz
    Wednesday, January 12th, 2005
    4:36 pm
    Giving in.
    Yeah so I finally gave into the cult known as Myspace and put my face on the web. I got accepted into a school for Game Design out in AZ. Hopefully all the fincances pull through and I get to go out there. Ill be done in two and a half years and out in the industry making games. How exciting ^.^ Diablo 2 owns my soul again and Halo 2 is getting brushed off after about a week of it sitting around. No word yet on getting shipped out. Not till after May at least when my unit returns. New bands im getting into: Badly Drawn Boy and Modest Mouse. I have known about them for some time now just never really got into them. IM still on the blues kick. prolly will be for a very long time. SO much fun to play on the guitar and so much feeling. Reading the Dragonlance series now. More like cant stop reading. Found out I only have 12.5% body fat. Puts me at carrying only 22 pounds of actual fat. Rest is muscle. Good stuff. 'Bout it for now.

    Current Mood: energetic
    Current Music: Modest Mouse
    Sunday, December 12th, 2004
    9:55 pm
    had to add more ^.^

    What Kind of Geek are You?
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    Favourite Color
    Your IQ is high
    You are a gamer geek
    Your strength is you never need to sleep
    Your weakness is electrons
    You think normal people are strange
    Normal people think that you are weird
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    Your Partner shaolindisciple
    Your Warrior kell__belle
    The Giggly, Flirtatious Magic User with Big Breasts _justinian_
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    Main Archenemy theshorterend
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    If you were on a battlefield right now, versus everything...
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    Lover or a Fighter?
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    Weapon of Choice Grenade Launcher
    Appearance Naked, flying in from above in a helicopter
    Your Battle Cry... Is a lethal weapon of its own
    Foes slain upon first strike: - 45%
    What you fight The Masses
    You fight.... For Yourself
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    which of your LJ friends would come to see you perform at a strip club?
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    slips you a 20 evilekeeper
    receives a lapdance from you shaolindisciple
    gets extra favors after the show theshorterend
    buys you a drink kell__belle
    gets kicked out by the bouncer for licking the pole _justinian_
    doesn't tip you at all,that fucker soccer_11
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    What kind of God are you?
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    DOB
    Favourite Color
    You earthly time was spent Supplanting kingdoms, punishing tyrants and levelling the empires of the wicked with the breath of your nostrils
    Your throne is fashioned from thorns and human femurs, surrounded by writhing, howling servants, with a footstool of souls on the sizzling shores of the Lake of Fire
    You wear A humble tunic and robes, belying your inestimable supernatural powers just waiting to shatter the woes of Creation
    Your Godly superpower is The knowledge of and answer to all questions
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    9:27 pm
    W007 W007!!
    SO spent the weekend at bowens TONS of fun!!! Didnt get to do a survivor D&D game -.- all is good though. Final week of school so hopefully more hours at work so I can have some money for christmas ^.^ Just being bored on a sunday night and taking some fun quizzes.

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    Current Mood: geeky
    Current Music: anything that rhymes with orange
    Monday, December 6th, 2004
    2:35 am
    YaY!
    Yay! Finally have an icon now.
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    Current Mood: Hoody Hoo!!!
    Current Music: The Blues Brothers Band
    Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
    12:25 am
    Fun stuff ^.~

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    Kissing Skill Level - 45%
    Cudding Skill Level - 27%
    Sex Skill Level - 84%
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    Current Mood: cheerful
    Wednesday, November 24th, 2004
    12:49 am
    Just as sense over nothing my reason open zoned.
    Oh I would if I could...

    "Whatever can be thought of is an idea in the mind of the person thinking of it; Therefore nothing can be thought of except ideas in minds; therefore anything else is inconceivable, and what is inconceivable can not exist."

    I believe at the moment that minds and ideas exist. Everything we experience comes from the mind of the being having the experience. This ranges from typing on the computer to seeing yourself in the mirror. That the mirror even exists at all is because you are looking at it. If there were no minds then nothing would exist. One could argue that the world was created and still exists today because there are minds to believe it is here. Think about it, if you were not reading this right now would it still be here? Did it exist before you knew it was here? I could change things to say that things exist based on the experiences we have. This is for the most part true. Though some things still don't exist. For instance dreams. Things that happen in dreams will not exist because we dreamt them. They happened in a subconsious mind. They are an experience though. We would have to change again then and say that Things exist based on experiences we have in our conciencous minds.

    My mind is starting to wonder off topic now. If anyone has any arguments to this they are very welcome to share them.

    I yearn for the feeling of companionship though. At least once a week I find myself feeling that I really dont have anyone I can tell how I feel. No one that will hold me if things are to hard. No one to miss me. No one for me to help and hold if they are troubled. Someone to talk to about everything. I know this may sound babyish or girlish. Yes I am in the army but things still get hard. I deal with them and hide my feelings. It's been to long though. My feelings need to come out. I am tired of the roundabout with girls. I have been single for to long and it is wearing on me. I am breaking down. Thoughts of going active duty have been flooding my mind recently. I think these thoughts come from the fact that I need to keep my mind busy so it doesnt have time to want a girl. This feeling puts you in a depressive state. I dont like being in a depressive state because of feelings I have that want a girlfriend. I still believe though that I need to wait until I meet the right person. I have met many girls but none have really touched me like I need to be touched. There have been many chances for me to meet new girls but everything always falls through for one reason or another. Even girls I have met that have showed some intrest end back up with an ex-boyfriend or some fling they met somewhere else. How hard is it for a nice guy to get a good girl? Nice guys always finish last and always will. Girls always talk about how hard it is to find a nice guy but if they do he just ends up being friends with her for some crazy reason. Guys cant just be friends with girls that they like. It hurts us to see you get hurt by assholes that you may date. We are just friends though and we are there for you. IF you would ever wake up and realize that the one that is there for you is really the guy that you have been looking for this whole time maybe you would be happy. This doesnt happen though. Im not talking about any girl specifically just ranting about experiences I have had and trends I have noticed.

    Ugh. Lost in the music again. The end result is that im falling into a state of depression again. I mey never show it but it will be there. Haunting my mind when I have hte alone time that I do. I cant run forever. I may keep finding things that keep me happy temporarily but it always will be back. I have no doubt about this.

    Current Mood: gloomy
    Current Music: The clue is in the title
    Sunday, October 17th, 2004
    8:07 pm
    *sigh*
    ......old girl......new feelings....

    Current Mood: contemplative
    12:28 pm
    1337
    So I found this and decided I should put it in. lots of fun. Not much been going on. Need to find a band, sprained my wrist going over a spine, and been busy with college, work, and skating.


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    Current Mood: devious
    Monday, September 20th, 2004
    2:43 pm
    Vote for Kerry :)
    Kerry's view on Iraq. A good one I must say, being an american soldier and all.



    Dear Supporter,

    This election is about choices. The most important choices a president makes are about protecting America at home and around the world. A president's first obligation is to make America safer, stronger and truer to our ideals.

    Three years ago, the events of September 11 reminded every American of that obligation. That day brought to our shores the defining struggle of our times: the struggle between freedom and radical fundamentalism. And it made clear that our most important task is to fight and to win the war on terrorism.

    In fighting the war on terrorism, my principles are straight forward. The terrorists are beyond reason. We must destroy them. As president, I will do whatever it takes, as long as it takes, to defeat our enemies. But billions of people around the world yearning for a better life are open to America's ideals. We must reach them.

    To win, America must be strong. And America must be smart. The greatest threat we face is the possibility Al Qaeda or other terrorists will get their hands on a nuclear weapon.

    To prevent that from happening, we must call on the totality of America's strength -- strong alliances, to help us stop the world's most lethal weapons from falling into the most dangerous hands. A powerful military, transformed to meet the new threats of terrorism and the spread of weapons of mass destruction. And all of America's power -- our diplomacy, our intelligence system, our economic power, the appeal of our values -- each of which is critical to making America more secure and preventing a new generation of terrorists from emerging.

    National security is a central issue in this campaign. We owe it to the American people to have a real debate about the choices President Bush has made and the choices I would make to fight and win the war on terror.

    That means we must have a great honest national debate on Iraq. The president claims it is the centerpiece of his war on terror. In fact, Iraq was a profound diversion from that war and the battle against our greatest enemy, Osama bin Laden and the terrorists. Invading Iraq has created a crisis of historic proportions and, if we do not change course, there is the prospect of a war with no end in sight.

    This month, we passed a cruel milestone: more than 1,000 Americans lost in Iraq. Their sacrifice reminds us that Iraq remains, overwhelmingly, an American burden. Nearly 90 percent of the troops -- and nearly 90 percent of the casualties -- are American. Despite the president's claims, this is not a grand coalition.

    Our troops have served with extraordinary bravery, skill and resolve. Their service humbles all of us. When I speak to them when I look into the eyes of their families, I know this: we owe them the truth about what we have asked them to do and what is still to be done.

    In June, the president declared, "The Iraqi people have their country back." Just last week, he told us: "This country is headed toward democracy. Freedom is on the march."

    But the administration's own official intelligence estimate, given to the president last July, tells a very different story.

    According to press reports, the intelligence estimate totally contradicts what the president is saying to the American people.

    So do the facts on the ground.

    Security is deteriorating, for us and for the Iraqis.

    42 Americans died in Iraq in June -- the month before the handover. But 54 died in July -- 66 in August and already 54 halfway through September.

    And more than 1,100 Americans were wounded in August -- more than in any other month since the invasion.

    We are fighting a growing insurgency in an ever widening war-zone. In March, insurgents attacked our forces 700 times. In August, they attacked 2,700 times -- a 400% increase.

    Falluja, Ramadi, Samarra, even parts of Baghdad -- are now "no go zones" -- breeding grounds for terrorists who are free to plot and launch attacks against our soldiers. The radical Shiite cleric, Muqtada al-Sadr, who is accused of complicity in the murder of Americans, holds more sway in the suburbs of Baghdad.

    Violence against Iraqis from bombings to kidnappings to intimidation is on the rise.

    Basic living conditions are also deteriorating.

    Residents of Baghdad are suffering electricity blackouts lasting up to 14 hours a day.

    Raw sewage fills the streets, rising above the hubcaps of our Humvees. Children wade through garbage on their way to school.

    Unemployment is over 50 percent. Insurgents are able to find plenty of people willing to take $150 for tossing grenades at passing U.S. convoys.

    Yes, there has been some progress, thanks to the extraordinary efforts of our soldiers and civilians in Iraq. Schools, shops and hospitals have been opened. In parts of Iraq, normalcy actually prevails.

    But most Iraqis have lost faith in our ability to deliver meaningful improvements to their lives. So they're sitting on the fence instead of siding with us against the insurgents.

    That is the truth -- the truth that the commander in chief owes to our troops and the American people.

    It is never easy to discuss what has gone wrong while our troops are in constant danger. But it's essential if we want to correct our course and do what's right for our troops instead of repeating the same mistakes over and over again.

    I know this dilemma first-hand. After serving in war, I returned home to offer my own personal voice of dissent. I did so because I believed strongly that we owed it those risking their lives to speak truth to power. We still do.

    Saddam Hussein was a brutal dictator who deserves his own special place in hell. But that was not, in itself, a reason to go to war. The satisfaction we take in his downfall does not hide this fact: we have traded a dictator for a chaos that has left America less secure.

    The president has said that he "miscalculated" in Iraq and that it was a "catastrophic success." In fact, the president has made a series of catastrophic decisions from the beginning in Iraq. At every fork in the road, he has taken the wrong turn and led us in the wrong direction.

    The first and most fundamental mistake was the president's failure to tell the truth to the American people.

    He failed to tell the truth about the rationale for going to war. And he failed to tell the truth about the burden this war would impose on our soldiers and our citizens.

    By one count, the president offered 23 different rationales for this war. If his purpose was to confuse and mislead the American people, he succeeded.

    His two main rationales -- weapons of mass destruction and the Al Qaeda/September 11 connection -- have been proved false by the president's own weapons inspectors and by the 9/11 Commission. Just last week, Secretary of State Powell acknowledged the facts. Only Vice President Cheney still insists that the earth is flat.

    The president also failed to level with the American people about what it would take to prevail in Iraq.

    He didn't tell us that well over 100,000 troops would be needed, for years, not months. He didn't tell us that he wouldn't take the time to assemble a broad and strong coalition of allies. He didn't tell us that the cost would exceed $200 billion. He didn't tell us that even after paying such a heavy price, success was far from assured.

    And America will pay an even heavier price for the president's lack of candor.

    At home, the American people are less likely to trust this administration if it needs to summon their support to meet real and pressing threats to our security.

    Abroad, other countries will be reluctant to follow America when we seek to rally them against a common menace -- as they are today. Our credibility in the world has plummeted.

    In the dark days of the Cuban Missile Crisis, President Kennedy sent former Secretary of State Dean Acheson to Europe to build support. Acheson explained the situation to French President de Gaulle. Then he offered to show him highly classified satellite photos, as proof. De Gaulle waved the photos away, saying: "The word of the president of the United States is good enough for me."

    How many world leaders have that same trust in America's president, today?

    This president's failure to tell the truth to us before the war has been exceeded by fundamental errors of judgment during and after the war.

    The president now admits to "miscalculations" in Iraq.

    That is one of the greatest understatements in recent American history. His were not the equivalent of accounting errors. They were colossal failures of judgment -- and judgment is what we look for in a president.

    This is all the more stunning because we're not talking about 20/20 hindsight. Before the war, before he chose to go to war, bi-partisan Congressional hearings... major outside studies... and even some in the administration itself... predicted virtually every problem we now face in Iraq.

    This president was in denial. He hitched his wagon to the ideologues who surround him, filtering out those who disagreed, including leaders of his own party and the uniformed military. The result is a long litany of misjudgments with terrible consequences.

    The administration told us we'd be greeted as liberators. They were wrong.

    They told us not to worry about looting or the sorry state of Iraq's infrastructure. They were wrong.

    They told us we had enough troops to provide security and stability, defeat the insurgents, guard the borders and secure the arms depots. They were wrong.

    They told us we could rely on exiles like Ahmed Chalabi to build political legitimacy. They were wrong.

    They told us we would quickly restore an Iraqi civil service to run the country and a police force and army to secure it. They were wrong.

    In Iraq, this administration has consistently over-promised and under-performed. This policy has been plagued by a lack of planning, an absence of candor, arrogance and outright incompetence. And the president has held no one accountable, including himself.

    In fact, the only officials who lost their jobs over Iraq were the ones who told the truth.

    General Shinseki said it would take several hundred thousand troops to secure Iraq. He was retired. Economic adviser Larry Lindsey said that Iraq would cost as much as $200 billion. He was fired. After the successful entry into Baghdad, George Bush was offered help from the UN -- and he rejected it. He even prohibited any nation from participating in reconstruction efforts that wasn't part of the original coalition -- pushing reluctant countries even farther away. As we continue to fight this war almost alone, it is hard to estimate how costly that arrogant decision was. Can anyone seriously say this president has handled Iraq in a way that makes us stronger in the war on terrorism?

    By any measure, the answer is no. Nuclear dangers have mounted across the globe. The international terrorist club has expanded. Radicalism in the Middle East is on the rise. We have divided our friends and united our enemies. And our standing in the world is at an all time low.

    Think about it for a minute. Consider where we were... and where we are. After the events of September 11, we had an opportunity to bring our country and the world together in the struggle against the terrorists. On September 12, headlines in newspapers abroad declared "we are all Americans now." But through his policy in Iraq, the president squandered that moment and rather than isolating the terrorists, left America isolated from the world.

    We now know that Iraq had no weapons of mass destruction and posed no imminent threat to our security. It had not, as the vice president claimed, "reconstituted nuclear weapons."

    The president's policy in Iraq took our attention and resources away from other, more serious threats to America.

    Threats like North Korea, which actually has weapons of mass destruction, including a nuclear arsenal, and is building more under this president's watch -- the emerging nuclear danger from Iran -- the tons and kilotons of unsecured chemical and nuclear weapons in Russia -- and the increasing instability in Afghanistan.

    Today, warlords again control much of that country, the Taliban is regrouping, opium production is at an all time high and the Al Qaeda leadership still plots and plans, not only there but in 60 other nations. Instead of using U.S. forces, we relied on the warlords to capture Osama bin Laden when he was cornered in the mountains. He slipped away. We then diverted our focus and forces from the hunt for those responsible for September 11 in order invade Iraq.

    We know Iraq played no part in September 11 and had no operational ties to Al Qaeda.

    The president's policy in Iraq precipitated the very problem he said he was trying to prevent. Secretary of State Powell admits that Iraq was not a magnet for international terrorists before the war. Now it is, and they are operating against our troops. Iraq is becoming a sanctuary for a new generation of terrorists who someday could hit the United States.

    We know that while Iraq was a source of friction, it was not previously a source of serious disagreement with our allies in Europe and countries in the Muslim world.

    The president's policy in Iraq divided our oldest alliance and sent our standing in the Muslim world into free fall. Three years after 9/11, even in many moderate Muslim countries like Jordan, Morocco, and Turkey, Osama bin Laden is more popular than the United States of America.

    Let me put it plainly: The president's policy in Iraq has not strengthened our national security. It has weakened it.

    Two years ago, Congress was right to give the president the authority to use force to hold Saddam Hussein accountable. This president, any president would have needed the threat of force to act effectively. This president misused that authority.

    The power entrusted to the president gave him a strong hand to play in the international community. The idea was simple. We would get the weapons inspectors back in to verify whether or not Iraq had weapons of mass destruction. And we would convince the world to speak with one voice to Saddam: disarm or be disarmed.

    A month before the war, President Bush told the nation: "If we have to act, we will take every precaution that is possible. We will plan carefully. We will act with the full power of the United States military. We will act with allies at our side and we will prevail." He said that military action wasn't "unavoidable."

    Instead, the president rushed to war without letting the weapons inspectors finish their work. He went without a broad and deep coalition of allies. He acted without making sure our troops had enough body armor. And he plunged ahead without understanding or preparing for the consequences of the post-war. None of which I would have done.

    Yet today, President Bush tells us that he would do everything all over again, the same way. How can he possibly be serious? Is he really saying that if we knew there were no imminent threat, no weapons of mass destruction, no ties to Al Qaeda, the United States should have invaded Iraq? My answer is no -- because a commander in chief's first responsibility is to make a wise and responsible decision to keep America safe.

    Now the president, in looking for a new reason, tries to hang his hat on the "capability" to acquire weapons. But that was not the reason given to the nation; it was not the reason Congress voted on; it's not a reason, it's an excuse. Thirty-five to forty countries have greater capability to build a nuclear bomb than Iraq did in 2003. Is President Bush saying we should invade them?

    I would have concentrated our power and resources on defeating global terrorism and capturing or killing Osama bin Laden. I would have tightened the noose and continued to pressure and isolate Saddam Hussein -- who was weak and getting weaker -- so that he would pose no threat to the region or America.

    The president's insistence that he would do the same thing all over again in Iraq is a clear warning for the future. And it makes the choice in this election clear: more of the same with President Bush or a new direction that makes our troops and America safer. It is time, at long last, to ask the questions and insist on the answers from the commander in chief about his serious misjudgments and what they tell us about his administration and the president himself. If George W. Bush is re-elected, he will cling to the same failed policies in Iraq -- and he will repeat, somewhere else, the same reckless mistakes that have made America less secure than we can or should be.

    In Iraq, we have a mess on our hands. But we cannot throw up our hands. We cannot afford to see Iraq become a permanent source of terror that will endanger America's security for years to come.

    All across this country people ask me what we should do now. Every step of the way, from the time I first spoke about this in the Senate, I have set out specific recommendations about how we should and should not proceed. But over and over, when this administration has been presented with a reasonable alternative, they have rejected it and gone their own way. This is stubborn incompetence.

    Five months ago, in Fulton, Missouri, I said that the president was close to his last chance to get it right. Every day, this president makes it more difficult to deal with Iraq -- harder than it was five months ago, harder than it was a year ago. It is time to recognize what is -- and what is not -- happening in Iraq today. And we must act with urgency.

    Just this weekend, a leading Republican, Chuck Hagel, said we're "in deep trouble in Iraq ... it doesn't add up ... to a pretty picture [and] ... we're going to have to look at a recalibration of our policy." Republican leaders like Dick Lugar and John McCain have offered similar assessments.

    We need to turn the page and make a fresh start in Iraq.

    First, the president has to get the promised international support so our men and women in uniform don't have to go it alone. It is late; the president must respond by moving this week to gain and regain international support.

    Last spring, after too many months of resistance and delay, the president finally went back to the U.N. which passed Resolution 1546. It was the right thing to do -- but it was late.

    That resolution calls on U.N. members to help in Iraq by providing troops, trainers for Iraq's security forces, a special brigade to protect the U.N. mission, more financial assistance, and real debt relief.

    Three months later, not a single country has answered that call. And the president acts as if it doesn't matter.

    And of the $13 billion previously pledged to Iraq by other countries, only $1.2 billion has been delivered.

    The president should convene a summit meeting of the world's major powers and Iraq's neighbors, this week, in New York, where many leaders will attend the U.N. General Assembly. He should insist that they make good on that U.N. resolution. He should offer potential troop contributors specific, but critical roles, in training Iraqi security personnel and securing Iraq's borders. He should give other countries a stake in Iraq's future by encouraging them to help develop Iraq's oil resources and by letting them bid on contracts instead of locking them out of the reconstruction process.

    This will be difficult. I and others have repeatedly recommended this from the very beginning. Delay has made only made it harder. After insulting allies and shredding alliances, this president may not have the trust and confidence to bring others to our side in Iraq. But we cannot hope to succeed unless we rebuild and lead strong alliances so that other nations share the burden with us. That is the only way to succeed.

    Second, the president must get serious about training Iraqi security forces.

    Last February, Secretary Rumsfeld claimed that more than 210,000 Iraqis were in uniform. Two weeks ago, he admitted that claim was exaggerated by more than 50 percent. Iraq, he said, now has 95,000 trained security forces.

    But guess what? Neither number bears any relationship to the truth. For example, just 5,000 Iraqi soldiers have been fully trained, by the administration's own minimal standards. And of the 35,000 police now in uniform, not one has completed a 24-week field-training program. Is it any wonder that Iraqi security forces can't stop the insurgency or provide basic law and order?

    The president should urgently expand the security forces training program inside and outside Iraq. He should strengthen the vetting of recruits, double classroom training time, and require follow-on field training. He should recruit thousands of qualified trainers from our allies, especially those who have no troops in Iraq. He should press our NATO allies to open training centers in their countries. And he should stop misleading the American people with phony, inflated numbers.

    Third, the president must carry out a reconstruction plan that finally brings tangible benefits to the Iraqi people.

    Last week, the administration admitted that its plan was a failure when it asked Congress for permission to radically revise spending priorities in Iraq. It took 17 months for them to understand that security is a priority, 17 months to figure out that boosting oil production is critical, 17 months to conclude that an Iraqi with a job is less likely to shoot at our soldiers.

    One year ago, the administration asked for and received $18 billion to help the Iraqis and relieve the conditions that contribute to the insurgency. Today, less than a $1 billion of those funds have actually been spent. I said at the time that we had to rethink our policies and set standards of accountability. Now we're paying the price.

    Now, the president should look at the whole reconstruction package, draw up a list of high visibility, quick impact projects, and cut through the red tape. He should use more Iraqi contractors and workers, instead of big corporations like Halliburton. He should stop paying companies under investigation for fraud or corruption. And he should fire the civilians in the Pentagon responsible for mismanaging the reconstruction effort.

    Fourth, the president must take immediate, urgent, essential steps to guarantee the promised elections can be held next year.

    Credible elections are key to producing an Iraqi government that enjoys the support of the Iraqi people and an assembly to write a Constitution that yields a viable power sharing arrangement.

    Because Iraqis have no experience holding free and fair elections, the president agreed six months ago that the U.N. must play a central role. Yet today, just four months before Iraqis are supposed to go to the polls, the U.N. Secretary General and administration officials themselves say the elections are in grave doubt. Because the security situation is so bad and because not a single country has offered troops to protect the U.N. elections mission, the U.N. has less than 25 percent of the staff it needs in Iraq to get the job done.

    The president should recruit troops from our friends and allies for a U.N. protection force. This won't be easy. But even countries that refused to put boots on the ground in Iraq should still help protect the U.N. We should also intensify the training of Iraqis to manage and guard the polling places that need to be opened. Otherwise, U.S forces would end up bearing those burdens alone.

    If the president would move in this direction, if he would bring in more help from other countries to provide resources and forces, train the Iraqis to provide their own security, develop a reconstruction plan that brings real benefits to the Iraqi people, and take the steps necessary to hold credible elections next year -- we could begin to withdraw U.S. forces starting next summer and realistically aim to bring all our troops home within the next four years.

    This is what has to be done. This is what I would do as president today. But we cannot afford to wait until January. President Bush owes it to the American people to tell the truth and put Iraq on the right track. Even more, he owes it to our troops and their families, whose sacrifice is a testament to the best of America.

    The principles that should guide American policy in Iraq now and in the future are clear: We must make Iraq the world's responsibility, because the world has a stake in the outcome and others should share the burden. We must effectively train Iraqis, because they should be responsible for their own security. We must move forward with reconstruction, because that's essential to stop the spread of terror. And we must help Iraqis achieve a viable government, because it's up to them to run their own country. That's the right way to get the job done and bring our troops home.

    On May 1 of last year, President Bush stood in front of a now infamous banner that read "Mission Accomplished." He declared to the American people: "In the battle of Iraq, the United States and our allies have prevailed." In fact, the worst part of the war was just beginning, with the greatest number of American casualties still to come. The president misled, miscalculated, and mismanaged every aspect of this undertaking and he has made the achievement of our objective -- a stable Iraq, secure within its borders, with a representative government, harder to achieve.

    In Iraq, this administration's record is filled with bad predictions, inaccurate cost estimates, deceptive statements and errors of judgment of historic proportions.

    At every critical juncture in Iraq, and in the war on terrorism, the president has made the wrong choice. I have a plan to make America stronger.

    The president often says that in a post 9/11 world, we can't hesitate to act. I agree. But we should not act just for the sake of acting. I believe we have to act wisely and responsibly.

    George Bush has no strategy for Iraq. I do.

    George Bush has not told the truth to the American people about why we went to war and how the war is going. I have and I will continue to do so.

    I believe the invasion of Iraq has made us less secure and weaker in the war against terrorism. I have a plan to fight a smarter, more effective war on terror -- and make us safer.

    Today, because of George Bush's policy in Iraq, the world is a more dangerous place for America and Americans.

    If you share my conviction that we can not go on as we are that we can make America stronger and safer than it is then November 2 is your chance to speak and to be heard. It is not a question of staying the course, but of changing the course.

    I'm convinced that with the right leadership, we can create a fresh start and move more effectively to accomplish our goals. Our troops have served with extraordinary courage and commitment. For their sake, and America's sake, we must get this right. We must do everything in our power to complete the mission and make America stronger at home and respected again in the world.

    Thank you, God bless you, and God bless the United States of America.
    Monday, August 23rd, 2004
    8:33 pm
    HOODIE HOO!!!
    HOODIE HOO! thats what I signed GenCons guestbook with. It freaken kicked so much ass out of control. Friday was good walked through the Exhibit hall and founda GM and started going through the Worlds Largest Dungeon. Saturday was definitly my highlight though. Went and spent the morning going through the exhibit hall and getting a shitload of free stuff. Then went and continued with The Worlds Largest Dungeon and made it to level 2. After that GIANT Settlers of Catans. played two games of that was totally sweet. At night though.... Survivor! Zombie Island. Almost 50 of us sitting around playing a version of All Flesh Must Be Eaten. The guy who ran it was amazing. everyone made a character within an hour and we were on the island watching Carmen Electra and David Shwimmer getting eaten by zombies. I talked to him for awhile and got his information so maybe one of these saurdays or for Halloween ill go down to ohio for one of his games. After that game got done, there is just way to much to talk about on that one, I met some guys playing a pick up game of hackmaster. The guys I played with placed 3rd in the hackmaster tournament of champions. The GM was freakin sweet because he ran it so smoothly and just knew the rules so well. I watched Anime the rest of the night then walked around for a bit till my ride got there then came home.

    This morning went out to ceder point but only got to spend about 3 hours out there because Erin went on a water ride wiht her cell phone and it got messed up. 4 rides thats all I rode. Next time im driving seperatly. 33 dollars out the window.
    Monday, August 9th, 2004
    4:22 pm
    Flitz
    Well the weekend is over and its back to work. Monday to monday. Its going to be a long week. All good though got vacation from the 17th through the 22nd. Indianapolis for GenCon baby! Reserve weekend went well. No exciting training unfortunatly. Next weekend is the family day picnic out at Selfridge Air Force Base. Hung out with Erin and her friend Jess yesterday. They came and kidnapped me in the Caddy and took me away. Erin really has matured quite a bit. There wasnt any of the normal erin conversation, it was semi intelligent and enjoyable. Her friend Jess I find myself attracted to. She is very cute and has a fun personality. Other than that I dont know to much right now. There are plans for us to hangout more. Hopefully things go well. The week is mosstly going to be work skate and band. Getting kinda sick right now. I went to the doctor today and I need x-rays for my right middle finger and my left knee. Got perscribed 600mg of motrin. Softball ends tomorrow kinda sad. not much else.

    Till the next time...

    Adu'

    Current Mood: cheerful
    Current Music: Jason Mraz
    Sunday, August 1st, 2004
    9:57 pm
    Deluge
    Okay so I decided that ill post these. Some were written during my time of training others more recently.

    Lonley
    What a word
    Lonley
    Only gets worse as time goes on
    Ive been shook so hard
    Ive bought the rings
    Ive bought the pearls
    Work
    Skate
    Music
    Friends
    Keep my mind busy
    Stay away from lonley
    Smile
    Have to smile
    Dont worry be happy
    Happiness isn't lonliness
    Sadness is
    ...


    False

    Desperate oh so desperate
    The pain I feel
    despair yes despair
    Only on the inside
    Never ever on the outside
    Turmoil tear at me
    Can do nothing
    Can say nothing
    Depression sets in
    Nobody knows...


    Why?

    I hang my head low
    Chin into chest
    My feet shuffle softly
    Left right left
    I try to think of the good
    Only the bad arise
    Nothing lifts my spirits
    Not even this drink
    Why do I go on?
    Why do I try?


    The Past

    It rises from nowhere
    Swallows me whole
    Takes all my energy
    Never leaves me alone
    I push it away
    Yest it always reappears
    It's never the good
    Always the bad
    Teased, poked, and prodded
    Can't it just go away
    It only brings pain
    The pain brings the tears
    I can't look in the mirror
    The more it's brought up
    Can't anyone see?
    Don't they understand?


    You

    I feel so lonley
    I feel so empty
    I'm so far away
    It's hard to feel complete
    I long to see you again
    I need to feel your touch
    I need the happiness you bring
    I look at your picture
    My body fills with warmth
    I get nervous just thinking
    It's been so long since we met
    I see you in my dreams
    I finaaly sleep fit

    Current Mood: lonely
    Current Music: Same...
    9:47 pm
    Not Applicable
    Been a long time... Lonley....Quite lonley actually....Been able to stay busy enough not to notice latley.....Though there are still down times where it sets in.....Maybe more later....A bit blue now...

    Current Mood: lonely
    Current Music: Led Zepplin - In my Time of Dying
    Monday, July 12th, 2004
    3:07 am
    Stupid Confused Females
    Stupid Confused Females. I choose this title because it represents much conversation and plenty experiance between my friends and I.

    Lets start by analyzing these.

    Stupid:

    stu·pid ( P ) Pronunciation Key (stpd, sty-)
    adj. stu·pid·er, stu·pid·est

    1. Slow to learn or understand; obtuse.
    2. Tending to make poor decisions or careless mistakes.
    3. Marked by a lack of intelligence or care; foolish or careless: a stupid mistake.
    4. Dazed, stunned, or stupefied.
    5. Pointless; worthless: a stupid job.

    1.most females are slow to pick up on things related to males. (I am trying to word it in a way to not offend anyone. But this is my journal and I do, comment or deal with it.) A male will try to make eye contact, do the same actions as a female i.e. sitting the same way, or the brave ones will strike up a conversation or try to. Also, they dont understand guy stuff. I could try to explain it but guys already know and females are a lost cause because no matter how many times you explain to them what some things of guy stuff are....They just dont get it and wont ever will.

    2.Poor decisions and Carless Mistakes. I dont think I need to touch on this one much at all. Most girls know they make bad choices but still decide for some ungodly known reason that they will make the same mistakes over and over again. Which goes back to bulletin number 1. They dont learn how to weed out the assholes and keep the ones they want.

    3.Blonde is traditional and nationally recognized mark of a lack of intelligence. You dont have to be smart to be rich and famous. We see this in Jessica Simpson. She has to be the apitamy of stupid. The definition. We still find the youth of our nation wanting to be like her and follow her. A role-model. What the hell! Do we want our daughters thinking that they cant be a fucking dumbass but still be rich and famous?!?!?! NO WAY! Teach your kids that they need an education get them away from the TV set media whores. got a little off track there but it still comes back that when they were young they were stupid. Youth now is even worse because of our so called rolemodels of today.

    4.nothing here.

    5.Yes sometimes I think it, you think it, we all did at some point. Females are pointless, worthless, and a waste of our time. Especially when your young like myself. Females are evil and you want to try and be some good in there lives. Gets you in all kinds of trouble and makes you feel like shit for a long time.

    Confused:

    Main Entry: con·fused
    Pronunciation: k&n-'fyüzd

    : affected with mental confusion
    ^
    |
    |
    |
    Nuff' said

    Female:

    No reason to actually give a dictionary definition on this one. Everybody knows what a female is. come on now.



    Okay so now that we have broken it down so everyone can understand lets move on. Females just can not make up thier minds. They tend to lie a lot as well. Just tell us the truth. If you like a different guy tell him. He will alawys think that something might be going on if you dont. This also leads to guys not being able to be friends with girls that they like. Girls sometimes a guy cant be your friend just for the simple fact that he likes you. Im sure we could debate this but its for a different time and place and not in this entry.

    Now a guy could be being the biggest dick in the world total asshole. It does not matter to the female. She will stay with him no matter how much he hurts her. A female will cry then go back to loving him again. I dont know exactly why this is. Maybe is has to do with a womans insecurity and having to be with someone. Or maybe its that a girl actually likes being treated like shit because maybe the guy they are dating is popular or "the hott guy." The image a female has to keep disgusts me. The only reason she trys to keep it is because of female politics. Once again female politics are another topic entirly. Now every girl who has been treated like this or likes this sort of treatment is a Stupid Confused Female.

    Other Stupid Confused Females include the im to preppy and good looking for everybody. These females will result in a life on the streets doing coke and whoring themselves out. There are also the ones that have to make sure every conversation has something about themselves in it. Okay these are personally the ones that disgust me the most. You are trying to have an intelligent conversation with a female and every topic she has to throw in how fat she is, something wrong in her life, her family sucking, what she did last weeked, the list goes on. Conversation is good. Conversation centered on you is terrible. All of these and more are all Stupid Confused Females.

    In closing I would like to say that guys need to watch out for these girls. ninety-five percent of females and no clue what they want. They cant ever make up thier minds about anything especially guys. This causes in much pain and things like this entry being written. But I am getting very tired and it is getting late so I must retire for the night.

    Make sure you let me know if I missed anything. Critiscm is encouraged

    Till the next time...

    Adu'

    Current Mood: thoughtful
    12:18 am
    Its twelve o' clock in the &*%$'in Morning
    Well lets start with the good and end with the bad.

    Good:

    Got a gig sunday the 18th. Friday Ceder Point. Saturday the Club. Sunday the gig and Transitions Ramp Park Eleven till Two. now for the bad...

    Bad:

    FaLsEiMaGe04: hey
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: Hola
    FaLsEiMaGe04: when on the 18th....??
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: yeah
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: next sunday
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: And my sister is renting out Transitions that night
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: skatepark
    FaLsEiMaGe04: okay
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: so can you hangout yet
    FaLsEiMaGe04: where's the gig.......what time.....?? and is transitions a skatepark...........??
    FaLsEiMaGe04: i don't know i haven't really asked
    FaLsEiMaGe04: i've been working
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: Yeah its a skatepark. the demo is from noon to 6.
    FaLsEiMaGe04: do you guys have a set time u play or you don't know yet.
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: We just kinda show up and play a few songs
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: So... I know im prolly going out on a limb here but.... I gotta know lol im such a dork.... do you think there is anything with us?
    FaLsEiMaGe04: your not a dork................but i don't know
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: ?
    FaLsEiMaGe04: your a cool guy but i don't think that we would be good together, as friends yea that would be cool, but i don't know about much more...........
    FaLsEiMaGe04: :-\
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: k
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: but all the holding hands and talking......
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: cuddling....
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: We were relating and everything
    FaLsEiMaGe04: i know.......
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: ...
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: ¿
    FaLsEiMaGe04: i was just getting to know you trying to feel things out, i thought that maybe something would happen but i know myself and i don't think something will...........i don't know what else to say..
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: okay as long as thats the truth
    FaLsEiMaGe04: yea
    RuChIcKmAgNeTsS: k



    I know that this is not the whole truth which makes it hurt even more. She actually had found another guy but will not tell me. :(

    Till the next time

    Adu'

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: Led Zepplin
    Saturday, July 3rd, 2004
    2:27 am
    Last Saturday
    Finally first band practice with everybody there today! Listening to our guitarist now on Yahoo! Rachel is the most awsome girl ever. Been hanging out with her tons and loving every moment of it. Jessica introduced me last saturday. Best thing to have happen to me in a long ass time. I think things might work out between us. I feels so good to finally havee a girl to cuddle with and everything its great. I was planning on asking her out tonight but she had a family emergency. Unfortunate. uumm me and the drummer mesh super awsome. I love finally having a drummer its great. Hopefully tomorrow ill make it out to the club for Jamie's 19th Birthday. Should be a lot of fun. I love dancing. Not to much else going on. Band practice tons. The drummer is always calling me which is super sweet. Big pot head but not a big deal. about it.

    Till the next time.

    Adu'

    Current Mood: horny
    Current Music: The Shorter End
    Saturday, June 26th, 2004
    2:03 am
    WHOOOOO
    Wow what a day. It was sweet! okay started off by waking up from a phone call from Bowen. Asked him to at noon and he did sweetness. Took my shower blah blah blah. Went over to Nicks house and rocked out with some xbox live then.....The sweetness started. I got a phone call from a ..... DRUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We went and auditioned him and he freakin rocked like none other. Our first practice should be Tuesday. Everybody be ready cause we'll be rockin at ya soon. Then the riverview fireworks party started. Man so sweet. We Bar-B-Qued and hung out. Lit of fireworks. LIt of fireworks at each other. Walked up to Denny's and I got a free dessert. Tonight we are going to drink and have some fun and tomorrow is Jessica's Grad party and im meeting a new girl. Should be interesting. Well today has definitly been the best and most perfect summer day I have ever had. Hopefully everything works out and you;'ll be at our shows in no time. Band name still nothing but we should work it out soon enough.

    Till the next time

    Adu'

    Current Mood: hyper
    Current Music: Everything sweet!!!!
    Sunday, June 13th, 2004
    8:37 pm
    The Deployment Zone
    okay things are about to get crazy here. uumm yeah.

    The title just comes from a random thought I had last night/this morning at work. We have a place where all the L-carts with ad on them go and we are all there at the start of work to get our ad and everything.

    So I guess this will be the first real deep feelings entry. Got a lot of feelings and things that I havent been able to talk about because ive been way to busy.

    Ive been depressed latley. I feel its a combination of things really. The amount of time ive been working is crazy and im not used to it. Idont get to spend as much time with friends as I want to and I feel im drifting from a lot of them. On the other hand though ive bee meeting some new people and hanging out with them. SO maybe its I just havent been giving as much time with old friends as I used to because of the new ones I have now. This weekend hopefully should be fun though because im trying to get everyone together for a little party im having.
    Im feeling lonely as well. I know I broke up with Jessica but I still had the feeling of being lonley when I was with her. She didnt like to cuddle so it was more like we were friends than actually dating. But I got asked to breakfast by this girl Mary Beth. Unfortunuatly she is leaving for the Navy for 5 years. weve been out for breakfast twice. the first was awsome we talked for 2 and a half hours. It was amazing I learned so much and wow. I asked her the second time and we talked for almost four hours. This girl has me going crazy like ive never felt before in my life. This I feel is another reason why ive beeen feeling depressed. I wish I could say of our conversations but it would be to hard to describe. we talked of so much and it was crazy because we would be flirting with each other but it was about our topics we chose and the words we used. Nothing can compare to this experiance. The other night I went out to breakfast for her last day of work and there was a bunch of us. but she always drove so when we got back to the parking lot for her to drop me off at my car we just sat in the car and did some kino flirting. we kissed a couple of times and she was saying how cute I was and it was just awsome. I am falling in love with this girl but she is leaving next week. its just so hard...I do know what I want out of a girl now. Im sorry if ive been out of things latley but ive had so much on my mind and feeling this way every day and night its I dont know loss of words. So ive been lonley and overworked. im trying to solve the overworked problem by finding a new job and going part time and this one right now. The lonley thing though can only be dealt with. Ive felt this way before and it will pass.

    Alright well pistons game is about to start and Kid Rock just got done singing America the beutiful. I thought he might bust out at anytime but he did finish it will Let' Rock! ALl the BOO'S are great to. they announce the lakers and pistons fans are booing the entire time. Whooooooooo

    Well i do feel better now that ive been able to actually tlak about everything thats been going on. Im sure there is more that can be discussed but thats time better spent over coffee in a diner.

    Till the next time

    Adu'

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: Touch a Name on the Wall - Joel Mabus
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